Review: The Law of Attraction by Jay Northcote

   When a professional relationship turns personal, it’s impossible to resist the law of attraction.
   Alec Rowland is a high-flying lawyer in a London firm whose career is his life. He doesn’t have time for relationships and his sexuality is a closely guarded secret. After picking up a cute guy on a Friday night, Alec’s world is rocked to its foundations when his one night stand shows up in the office on Monday morning—as the new temp on his team.
   Ed Piper is desperate to prove himself in his new job. The last thing he needs is to be distracted by a crush on his boss. It’s hard to ignore the attraction he feels, even though Alec’s a difficult bastard to work for.
   Both men strive to maintain a professional relationship, but tempers fray, passions ignite, and soon they’re both falling hard and fast. If they’re ever going to find a way to be together, Alec needs to be honest about who he really is because Ed won’t go back in the closet for anyone.


Jay Northcote is an author whose books I know I'm going to enjoy. She has a very clean writing style that is easy to read and engaging. Nothing is overtly complex, yet the characters are written with depth and understanding. They are likeable and relate-able - and that is what keeps me going back for more. 

I chose different authors for different reading moods, and Jay Northcote as one I choose when I want a light-hearted read with a touch of humour. The Law of Attraction certainly fitted the bill for me. The storyline isn't a new one, discovering your new boss/employee was your mind blowing one night stand has been done before and will be (I don't doubt) done again. It doesn't matter to me though, if the story has been told before, if I believe in the new characters and enjoy the presentation - and here I did.

Ed kinda stole a bit of my heart. He felt very sincere. I appreciated that there was no unnecessary drama from him. No acting out. He wasn't afraid to be himself, but he didn't do it with a whole load of manipulative bullshit. I liked him a lot.

Alec - well truth be told, I did wonder of I was going to like Alec. The closeted gay guy with the best-friend-beard... it could have been just too cliché for my tastes. But actually, it didn't slip down that path, it felt right. I believed Alec and Alec's reasoning/behaviour.

As ever with  Jay Northcote story, there is hot sex a plenty, so if you're looking to steam up your reading glasses this is a good bet. The balance of hot and sweet is pretty spot on for a low angst, enjoyable read.

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Guest Review: Shadows and Light by Cari Z.

A fight to the death against his former master turns into a chance for Rafael, an assassin denied the immortality he lived to achieve, to learn the shocking truth about the fate he was spared.

Rafael wanted nothing more than to serve his immortal master, Xian, a High One of Clare, who taught him from an early age how to be an assassin. But after failing the final test, Rafael was turned out into the Lower City, abandoned by the one person he thought he could count on.

Years of hatred and thoughts of revenge have fueled Rafael’s quest for vengeance, but when the time comes to strike at Xian, he hesitates and is taken prisoner. Rafael expects to die, either at Xian’s hand or at the hand of Myrtea, his sadistic mistress.

Instead Xian heals him, spares him a brutal interrogation and tells him the dark truth driving the ruthlessness of the High Ones—the source of their immortality is spent. Soon the city will devolve into chaos as High Ones battle one another and the rebelling denizens of the Lower City for power and resources. Xian wants to spare Rafael that pain, just as he spared him the pain of becoming a High One a decade earlier.

Their only chance for survival is to escape Clare before civil war breaks out. Even if they make it out of the city, though, there’s no guarantee that Xian will live through the agonizing process of becoming human again. The only ones they can rely on are each other…if Rafael can bring himself to once again trust his former master, the only man he’s ever loved.

Reader Advisory: This book contains mentions of blood-drinking, blood magic, blood-play, knife-play, addiction and withdrawal, as well as flogging and whipping. This book also refers to pain and blood-play as coping mechanisms.

Publisher's Note: This book has been released elsewhere. It has been revised and re-edited for re-release with Pride Publishing.



Cari Z is a new to me author……and I can’t explain why. How have I missed this?! I feel like I live under a rock right now. I feel betrayed by my reader friends. Why has no one recommended Cari Z to me before?! I’m wounded. Deeply.

But now that I have discovered the wonder of Cari’s writing, I can see myself working my way through the back list. So at least there is that. I’m now somewhat pacified.

Now that I got the pouting out of the way, let’s talk about this book.

Raphael lives in the slums, and dreams about taking revenge on his former Master, for casting him out and abandoning him to wallow in self-pity and deep depression. He stalks the High One’s and takes them out to get his message to Xian in the hopes that it will draw the former Master to him so he can kill him.

As a former apprentice to be ascended to a High One, and trained ruthlessly by Xian, Raphael has the assassin skills required to catch each arrogant High One by surprise, and take their life. This is facilitated by their inability to tolerate the sun, and movement is always done at night, in the Shadows.

This world was rich with descriptive, showing text. It was not difficult to imagine any of the world the author shared. It was quick to be explained, but not rushed. Through Raphael’s introspection, and present visuals I easily grasped what was going on, who Raphael was, and what his plans were. I also felt his emotions completely, and was sucked into his campaign of killing.

We don’t meet Xian for quite a while, but when we do, it is a very curious exchange. His motives are not clear, and he keeps things secret for quite some time. It is easy to see how devoted Raphael was to Xian as an apprentice, and how those feelings are just below the surface when they come face to face again.

The story unfolds slowly, and we only learn things in due time. Nothing is given away too early, and there is no wondering where a scene came from. This story flowed seamlessly, and skillfully.

Raphael is a masochist… possibly borne, not trained. It’s hard to tell from the flashbacks but he was definitely always submissive. His absolute devotion to Xian and unconditional love is apparent in every move he makes. Whether he likes it or not, he could never harm his Master.

It was difficult to understand Xian’s perspective. We did not jump into his point of view, so we learned about him only from Raphael’s perspective and the dialogue they shared. This made it difficult to connect with him on an emotional level, which I believe was the point. He is thousands of years old, and has been in this state of being for so long that emotion isn’t something he can relate to. He feels affection, but anything beyond that, he no longer understands.

The mythology behind the High One’s, and how they came to be, was interesting and creative. Immortality has a price, and that price can become very high. Resources are always finite. There will always be an end somewhere.

The sex was intense. Complete D/s relationship with bondage and SM. Some of it extreme. The knife play was hot. It’s one of my favourite scenes to read. While the sex was great, it was understated to the rest of the story. It added, not distracted from the actual plot. And this was a complex plot, with lots of twists and turns. I really enjoyed my time in this world, and hope there will be more.

The story ends with a few threads loose, and I hope that means that we might be able to explore this couple some more at a later date. It was definitely worth my time, and attention, and I would jump all over a sequel.

Recommended for those who enjoy fantasy, action adventure with heavy kink, excellent world building, and an almost HFN. This does not end on a cliffhanger, it is a complete novel.




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Guest Review: Mayon by Mickie B. Ashling

2nd Edition

The Philippines, 1946

After being discharged from the Marines, John Buchanan is offered a position as overseer for plantation owner Ignacio Saenz. The offer is unexpected, considering he knows nothing about coconut farming, but the presence of Mount Mayon, an active volcano within sight of the property, tips the scales in Ignacio’s favor. Finally John has a chance to put his lifelong passion for vulcanology into practice.


Gregorio Delgado, the current overseer, takes exception to this turn of events. He views John as an interloper and Ignacio’s offer as a thinly disguised excuse to marry off one of his six daughters. What neither of them expects is the powerful physical attraction that simmers between them. Could John be a kindred spirit, or is he just using Gregorio for his knowledge of farming to ingratiate himself with his potential father-in-law? 


As John and Gregorio begin a tour of the haciendas, John discovers he has far more in common with his new acquaintance than he thought possible. Torn between honor and desire, John struggles to define who he is and what Gregorio could mean to him. Like the unpredictable volcano, equal parts beauty and danger, Gregorio becomes an obsession that could erupt at any minute and destroy them both. 


1st Edition published by Dreamspinner Press, 2012.




The love story is sweet. And the setting is interesting and different from everything else I’ve read. But there were several things that didn’t allow me to enjoy this fully.

Let’s begin with the obvious: how many books have I read that are set in Philippines? Zero. So, yes, this is the first one. No, I'm not an expert in this area, but I know a thing or two.


Philippines has always bedazzled me. It’s the only hispanic country in Asia, which by itself is a rarity. When you look at the old photos you see hospitals, universities, churches, cathedrals, markets, streets and the like that are clearly not Chinese or Japanese or like any other country in the area. They have their own culture, their own fashion, their own cuisine. I had a Filipino English teacher and she said the lechón was a typical dish. Imagine my face when I knew they eat the food of Segovia.

(Metro station in Madrid)
The majority of the population are Catholic which by itself is shocking when we are speaking about Asia. My Filipino teacher herself was educated by nuns. She doesn’t speak Spanish but her grandpa was a Spaniard who married a Filipina. So I can kind of imagine that love story here.


I only know her but amongst my English-speaking teachers, she had the best accent, maybe only beaten by the Canadian one. Yes, I know I should not overgeneralize because I have only properly met one Filipina in my life but so far I can tell her accent is the easiest to understand in comparison to the Australian, American and English ones. By a long shot.

Here is what Spanish people know about Philippines, and that’s being generous. A while ago, an expedition paid by the Kingdom of Castile pushed Magallanes to achieve the first circumnavitagion of the Earth. He died in the Philippines, so Elcano finished the task and reached the Iberian Peninsula (1522). Some decades later Legazpi came and founded Manila and Cebu. Then some centuries until the Spanish-American War and the Crisis of 1898.

That’s all.

Nothing about the Manila Galleon or the battles against the Japanese or the Dutch or the like.

So I try to know more and read everything I can find out there. Considering I read almost exclusively M/M, it wasn’t easy. But not impossible.

Unfortunately, I wasn’t wholly satisfied with the Spanish impression here. The problem I have with this book is not that there are inconsistent historical facts. I think the author did a hell of a job here. But I believe she’s “ignoring” the American presence in Philippines and outlining the Spanish details in a way I can’t consider entirely true and it's more negative than not. I don’t want to be skeptical, but when the Americans’ actions are so cool and the Spanish ones are so bad, it does not inspire trust. It’s like a bad guy versus a good guy and this dichotomy is not subtle.


I don’t want to give you a lecture but I don’t feel comfortable overlooking everything that rubbed me the wrong way. I’m giving you an out here.

Here there are some examples.
“He’d studied all the countries Spain had colonized for centuries, and the Phillippines had invariably come up in their discussion.”
When Rome conquered Spain, Spain didn’t exist yet. It was a land full of Iberos and other tribes when the Celts invaded it. Then the Greek, Phoenician and Carthaginian came and established colonies in the coast. Then the Roman became powerful and coveted the land for her metals and people. The conquest lasted 2 centuries (219BD-19AD, take that, Asterix and Obelix!) and they called that land “Hispania” (Spain+Portugal), and she became a province in the Roman Empire. This is what formed the “idea” of a nation when Hispania stopped being part of the Empire. Hispania stopped being part of Rome because in order to defend the Empire from the barbarians, they had to ask for help and give a part of it to the Centro European people. Meaning: Hispania was sold and invaded by the Sueves, Vandals and Alans. But then the Goths expelled them and ruled over it and it became a nation: Hispania. It didn’t last long as soon the Islam came.

Why is this so important? Philippines was called after King Phillip II. But before that? Using the same argument as with the Roman Empire: Spain ruled over lands that weren’t countries yet. Mexico didn’t exist and Phillippines didn’t exist. The same way USA began its existence after the Independence. The term “colony” is very popular in the English language: “the 13 American Colonies”. Spain never referred to the territories as the “colonies”, she was compounded by “viceroyalties” or “kingdoms”: Viceroyalty of New Spain, of Río de la Plata, of Perú, of New Granada… even Navarre and Naples and Portugal had viceroys. It means they had autonomy. Considering we are speaking about centuries ago. We can’t criticise past actions with the mentality we have nowadays. Civilization progresses at its own speed. Philippines, Puerto Rico and Cuba were captaincies general included in New Spain.

“The prevalent use of the Castilian language among the guest he’d met so far only confirmed the info he’d received when first landing on Philippine soil. The Spaniards still thought they were in charge. John figured that fantasy would have been obliterated by then, since they’d had given up the Philippines in 1898, but it seemed to be deeply rooted in Philippine culture.”

I’m going to avoid reading between lines: Spaniards are assholes.

Spain didn’t “give up” just like that. There was a war. The Spanish-American War. The old tired lion was no menace for a young eagle who would eventually become the first world power. The Conquest of the Wild West was done and the horizon was not finite yet. I won’t tell it here because this is not the place nor the time. I just want to say 1898 is a year most consider insignificant, but for Spain it was the “Disaster of ‘98” and it’s no coincidence we still use the popular saying “More was lost in Cuba”. It was indeed a turning point in Spain. There was an economic and social crisis and a literary movement called the “Generation of 98”. It was the year Spain become a third class power for good, the official year the Spanish Empire ended.

I wish Isaac Peral had been paid attention. A submarine or two would have come in handy then.

But what happened, happened.


Anyway, History is written by the victors and the Spanish Black Legend is still very alive.
“The Spaniards don’t consider me a part of their world, even though my father was pure Castilian”.
False, he was Basque, not Castilian. I honestly don’t understand this statement, it would be more logical to say he was Spanish, because Greg truly doesn’t know who his father was.

“And furthermore,” Greg blustered, “there are universities in Manila older than your famous Harvard. Did you know that?”

“No.”

“The University of Santo Tomás was founded in 1611. I believe Harvard wasn’t a thought until 1636.”
Why, universities? By the Spaniards? How do you dare! Spaniards were fanatical people who were obsessed about enslaving and killing and getting all the gold they could! How can you say they had universities when Science and Arts were crushed under the Inquisition’s heel? And in Philippines, no less. Universities! You offend me! *snorts*

*ironic mode off*


There are lots of Spanish words included in the book. My Filipina teacher said they had lots of Spanish words in the Tagalog. Then we have the chavacano, which sounds like a very sweet Spanish and the written version is strange and familiar at the same time. But nowadays less than 3% of the population speaks chavacano (which is not small considering there are more than 100 million people in Philippines). Why is that?


Well, for starters, although the Spanish was the official language, it was never widespread throughtout the Filipino population. It was of course spoken by the upper classes, mostly those who lived in the big cities, but also by the intellectuals and cultured people, those who had the means to pay for an education (this group didn’t necessarily include only those of European ancestry). It was by far less common in other classes and areas, which shouldn’t come as a surprise because there are more than 150 languages in the archipelago.

It’s also interesting to point out that many writers in Philippines wrote their works in Spanish, based on my research. The funny fact is that this “Golden Age” of Filipine literature was written in Spanish while and after she drifted apart from Spain, and even to talk about the independence and the nationalism. The first Philippino anthem was written in Spanish. Ironic, isn’t it?


Still, after the Philippine-American War, the Spanish language was forbidden in Philippines. Only English was allowed. The “Kill everyone over the age of ten” claimed many Spanish-speaking victims. Some of the works mentioned before were forbidden in Philippines and had to be published elsewhere. Lots of them were not even published but have been rotting in the oblivion ever since. Literally speaking, because in a country on which Mother Nature loves to download all her force, you can’t make light of it. Luckily, last time I checked, the Instituto Cervantes in Manila was beginning an operation to bring these works to the light.

But if language is not enough, we also have to take into consideration WWII and the destruction of the cultural heritage and historical monuments of Manila, the place were the Spanish influence was stronger. Intramuros was demolished as a whole after the pattern bombing to kick the Japanese out, corpses included. Unfortunately, this masacre is even more unknown than that one in Leningard/Saint Petersburg or Warsaw, but no less bloody and sad.

“Hordes of mosquitoes had also feasted on his tender flesh like cannibals. It was no wonder the Marines drummed in the importance of taking the tiny yellow pills to ward off malaria. The Atabrine tasted vile, but it actually kept the disease away, as did the mosquito nets when they ha a chance to use them.”
This is a pity. This was a time when anti-malarial drugs were truly effective. In the 50s-60s there was an aggressive campaign run by the WHO whose objetive was to erase the disease once and for all, the same way it was done with the smallpox and the same way it’s being done with the polio. They were close to achieving it. But there were resistant strains who survived and the disease went out of hand again. The same with tuberculosis, one of the most widespread infectious diseases; it’s a real challenge figuring out how to control them.

References to nativity scenes, San Miguel beer, merienda, siesta… It could perfectly be Spain. Which makes me happy and nostalgic at the same time, with all those similarities.


“Greg was lucky his family had close ties to the Saenzes, and as such, he reaped some of the rewards of their wealth.”
That “the Saenzes” sounds super weird. I know that in English it’s normal to use the plural that way, but in Spanish we would say “los Sáenz”, the article determining the plurality of the noun. I don’t know if in the Philippines it’s said like the Spanish version or the American one, though.

Sometimes it felt encyclopedic rather than a novel, with so many foods and customs and discussions now and then. I was interested in these details because it’s what makes this book different from the rest. But sometimes it dragged on.


Despite all of this, it was more or less bearable, because the love story is beautiful and lovely. With the added charm of it being forbidden in an exotic environment. So, as a whole, it was pleasant, if not truly poignant and captivating. I never had a rush to read the book but wasn’t repelled by it, either.

But then the shit hit the fan. And I was utterly upset.

There is a scene close to the end that seems taken from a soap opera. It’s like the Crowded Cabin scene from the Marx’ Brothers movie but with a drama queen-ish hint. Seriously. SPOILER:  Victoria is at home. Greg comes very distressed. Then Don Ignacio comes, tries to hit Greg. Then John appears and avoids it. Then Don Luis comes and OMG, what’s going on here? It was a bit too much for my taste.

Then I put two and two together and realised something: the Spaniards were the bad guys. When you want to portray someone as nasty and despicable, you draw them as complete idiots or as ugly jerks.

So I made my calculations:

Don Ignacio: an asshole.
Don Luis: an asshole.
Doña Carmen: a fat bitch.
Petunia: a fat bitch.

The only Spaniard who deserved to be saved from being burnt alive was Daisy, who, by the way, was an airhead. And Lily, who was rather simple.

But the American? He’s perfect.

Americans win, Spaniards suck. Please, repeat. Americans win, Spaniards suck. Did you learn it yet or should I repeat it again?

Then the definite ending. SPOILER:  Victoria is pregnant. It’s like... are you for real? Are you fooling me with this forced resolution of things? This too much, I can’t digest all this surreality. Perfect ending for John and Greg, it solves everything… Right?

I’m out.

So yes, I was a little annoyed by this and ended the book frustrated and a little ofended, if you may.

It could have been marvelous, but it wasn’t. I guess I took it too personally, maybe I made a huge issue out of it. So please, don’t discard this book completely yet. But I can’t help my feelings on this.






An ARC was provided in exchange for an honest review.

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Review: Lucky in Loveland (Welcome to Loveland #1) by K-lee Klein

Loveland, Colorado is a special place all year around, a community of creativity and art, with scenic views and majestic mountains. But the town really shines once a year, on Valentine's Day.

Lucky Roberts has lived in Loveland his whole life. He has good friends, strong family support, and is all about keeping his community fun and alive. The only thing Lucky has been "unlucky" with is love. But rather than avoiding February fourteenth in his hometown, he throws himself into helping others deliver their messages of love.

Enter Jack Canon. Jack moved to Loveland for a fresh start, in both his personal and professional lives. After a tough year, he's finally hoping to just blend in, maybe carve a little niche for himself that his parents would have been proud of. What he didn't expect was a pseudo-lumberjack with a killer body and shy smile to turn his world upside down – and he sure didn't expect to like it so much.

When Lucky meets Jack, he feels like a thirteen year-old with his first crush. He's clumsy, stammering, and the first greeting out of his mouth is a less than articulate, "Wow!" Words like adorable and manbun suddenly become part of his vocabulary as he discovers a deep, hidden need to romance the hell out of Jack.

And what better way to do that than during the most romantic season in the City of Love?



Jack, who is a Kindergarten teacher (<- I know, right?), has a guest speaker for his kiddos. Lucky is there to talk hockey with the class, but as soon as he sees the teacher he can't take his eyes off the guy. His only reaction was "Wow." Hot Kindergarten teacher with a manbun? I'd be saying "Wow", too.

Jack and Lucky hit it off right away and were pretty darn adorable together. They took things slow and were intent on courting each other. They wanted to do things right and I appreciated that. I loved their dates and seeing them fall for each other.

There were some cheesy moments. I mean, with that title and premise, it's hard not to be. But I do love me some cheese now and then, and it fit in well with the story here. The town has a thing for Valentine's day with some cute traditions. They had an especially fun date with this tradition. Was it all that believable? Ehh... I don't know. But it left a smile on my face and when I read a romance that's all that really matters.

Jack and Lucky got along great and had some fun banter. It went into too much territory for me a couple times, though. They never had bad intentions, but the constant little jabs were annoying after a while. I love me some good banter, but I also like actual conversation.

All in all, this was a very cute read. Some minor things bothered me, but I'd love to read more about Lucky and Jack. They're quite fun to read about.

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Release Day Review: Dirty Heart (Cole McGinnis #6) by Rhys Ford

Final book in the Dirty Series arc.

Former LAPD detective Cole McGinnis’s life nearly ended the day his police partner and best friend Ben Pirelli emptied his service weapon into Cole and his then-lover, Rick. Since Ben turned his gun on himself, Cole thought he’d never find out why Ben tried to destroy him.

Years later, Cole has stitched himself back together. Now a private investigator and in love with Jae-Min Kim, a Korean-American photographer he met on a previous case, Cole’s life is back on track—until he discovers Jeff Rollins, a disgraced cop and his first partner, has resurfaced and appears to be working on the wrong side of the law.

As much as Cole’s fought to put the past behind him, he’s soon tangled up in a web of lies, violence, and death. Jeff Rollins is not only trying to kill Cole’s loved ones, he is also scraping open old wounds and long-forgotten memories of the two men Cole loved and lost. Cole is sure Rollins knows why Ben ruined all their lives, but he isn’t looking for answers. Now Cole is caught in a cat-and-mouse game with a cold-blooded killer with the key to not only his past but his future.




Warning!  Long review is long!


Long, long ago, back in Ye Olden Tymes (ok, more like 2013) when I was but a wee unicorn, upon the advice of the beautiful Piper Vaughn I decided to crash GRL in Atlanta.  I was nervous and timid and really out of my comfort zone because I was going to meet some of my favorite authors. To be honest, I was a bit starstruck.  Oh, I put on a brave face when, really, I was trembling inside.  What if I did something stupid like trip over my own two feet or drooled or spit when I talked?  What if no one talked to me?  What if no one liked me?

But guess what happened when I got there.  Almost immediately after I walked into the lobby of the hotel I was met by Piper, who was hanging out at the time with Rhys.  Rhys brought me into the fold and made me feel welcome.  We talked a bit and she put me on her mailing list.  Rhys is a warm, kind and thoughtful person who put me at ease with her humor and really set the tone for one of the most wonderful days I’d had in a long time. 

Rhys, Piper & Me looking gorgeous as always
And this thoughtfulness, warmth and humor translates into the stories she writes.

I first met Cole and Jae two years ago when I was asked to review Dirty Deeds, book 4 in the Cole McGinnis series.  Seeing as how I hadn’t even read book 1, Rhys generously offered the entire series up to then for me to read.  I was a bit reluctant to get into the series because, really, I don’t like mysteries.  I always figure out whodunit early into the story and it detracts from my enjoyment.  Well, guess what.  I didn’t know whodunit!  In fact, I was stumped by each and every one of the books in the series, never guessing who the culprit was until they were revealed.  To say that this quickly became one of my most favorite series of all time is a severe understatement.

To be honest, I’ve been a little scared to read this.  I’ve had the ARC since January but I kept putting it off because what if I didn’t like it?  What if it didn’t live up to my expectations?  To have a series that I hold so close to my heart disappoint me in the end was a bit daunting.  But of course, of course I loved this.  I have loved every book that Rhys has ever written so I’m ashamed that I had any reservations about this one.  I’m sorry, Rhys, for ever doubting you.

Each one of these books starts out with shenanigans.  Whether it’s a gun-toting grandma in a leather bikini, a daring dog rescue for a little girl with anime eyes and a unicorn toy for payment or even clowns and llama shit, Cole can’t seem to stay out of trouble.  It’s like he’s a magnet for the absurd.  But don’t worry, this is balanced out by the meat of the story where we get to ride along with Cole on his adventures.  

Throughout the series we’ve witnessed one overall story arc:  Why did Cole’s best friend and partner on the force, Ben shoot him and his then lover Rick, murdering him and then kill himself?  What was it all for?  What the hell happened?  It was a senseless murder-suicide that came out of nowhere, the consequences of which Cole has been carrying around ever since.  Even years later he hasn’t been able to put it behind him and move on with his life because he needed to know what.  The fuck.  Happened.

Jae coming into his life has helped him heal somewhat but he’s never been able to get over it enough to live an emotionally healthy life.  He’s still stuck on stupid a lot of the times, rushing headlong into danger and sometimes forgetting he has someone to live for again.  But here’s the thing about Cole.  He’s fierce in his love, not only for Jae but for his brother Mike, his best friend Bobby, his pseudo-mom Claudia and anyone else he considers ‘family’.  The man may not be able to dress himself in colors that coordinate but if he thinks you’re in danger he will protect you with everything he has, even if it is to his own detriment.  I think that has a lot to do with all the survivors guilt that he can’t seem to let go of, though throughout the series we see him becoming stronger and more confident in himself.  

Thankfully, in this last book of the series, we finally learn why Ben did what he did all those years ago.  And let me tell you I did not see that coming.  Rhys has stumped me again!  That wasn’t even on my radar!  And no, I’m not going to tell you why.  Read the book!  Better yet, pick up Dirty Kiss, book one of the series.  Seriously, you can’t go wrong with this series.  Rhys Ford is a phenomenal writer, with words so descriptive I can see and hear and smell and even taste everything that goes on within the pages.  Her words have the ability to suck you in and not let go until you’ve finished, then leave you with the worst of book hangovers.  It always takes me a while to pull myself back out of whatever world she’s created after I’ve finished one of her stories.  And she writes some of the most amazing characters I have ever read.  Everyone, even the secondary and tertiary characters are fully fleshed out and have their own unique voice.  She has made me fall in love with these figments of her imagination and to think of them as real people.

How do I go about telling you what Cole and Jae and Bobby and Ichi and Mike and Maddy and Claudia mean to me?  Where do I begin?  How can I encompass all of the feelings of love and laughter and companionship and frustration and annoyance and friendship into a few short words?  Well, I guess it all boils down to one thing.  Family.  This feels like my family.  I feel a part of this fictitious world.  Every one of the characters in this series are special to me.   I’m so sad to see them go but this couldn’t have been a more perfect ending for them.  

Saranghae-yo Cole.  Saranghae-yo Jae-Min.  I will miss you all and I hope to hear from you again in the future. 



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In My Heart Anthology by Joe Cosentino

AN INFATUATION: With his ten-year high school reunion approaching, Harold wonders whether Mario will be as muscular, sexy, and tantalizing as he remembers. As a teenager, it was love at first sight for Harold while tutoring football star Mario, until homophobia and bullying drove Mario deep into the closet. Now they’re both married men. Mario, a model, is miserable with his producer wife, while Harold, a teacher, is perfectly content with his businessman husband, Stuart. When the two meet again, will the old flame reignite, setting Harold’s comfortable life ablaze? How can Harold be happy with Stuart when he is still infatuated with his Adonis, his first love, Mario? Harold faces this seemingly impossible situation with inimitable wit, tenderness, and humor as he attempts to reconcile the past and the future.

A SHOOTING STAR: On the eve of the best night of his life, winning an Academy Award, Jonathan Bello thinks back to his one great love, David Star. Flipping back the pages of time, Jonathan recalls his handsome, muscular, and charismatic college roommate. Since Jonathan was a freshman and David a senior in the Theatre Department, David took Jonathan under his wing and molded him, not only as an actor but as a lover. With every wonderful new adventure, David left his joyful mark on anyone with whom they came in contact, but Jonathan soon uncovered David’s dark past, leading to a shocking event. Undaunted, Jonathan celebrates the captivating man who will always hold a special place in his heart.

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Dreamspinner Press have combined two of Joe Cosentino's short stories into an anthology. Previously reviewed here and here on the blog/Goodreads, in their separate states, I wanted to give the world a heads up that this anthology can be purchased from today. These were both five heart reads for me, and now you can get them combined. How do you resist that?

If you're interested, here are some to buy links:

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Review: Trailer Trash by Marie Sexton

It’s 1986, and what should have been the greatest summer of Nate Bradford’s life goes sour when his parents suddenly divorce. Now, instead of spending his senior year in his hometown of Austin, Texas, he’s living with his father in Warren, Wyoming, population 2,833 (and Nate thinks that might be a generous estimate). There’s no swimming pool, no tennis team, no mall—not even any MTV. The entire school’s smaller than his graduating class back home, and in a town where the top teen pastimes are sex and drugs, Nate just doesn’t fit in.

Then Nate meets Cody Lawrence. Cody’s dirt-poor, from a broken family, and definitely lives on the wrong side of the tracks. Nate’s dad says Cody’s bad news. The other kids say he’s trash. But Nate knows Cody’s a good kid who’s been dealt a lousy hand. In fact, he’s beginning to think his feelings for Cody go beyond friendship.

Admitting he might be gay is hard enough, but between small-town prejudices and the growing AIDS epidemic dominating the headlines, a town like Warren, Wyoming, is no place for two young men to fall in love.





I stewed over this book for a couple days, wavering between 4 and 5 hearts, finally settling on 5 mainly because I can't remember being as affected by a book since Rattlesnake, one of my favorite reads of 2015. I'm not sure if it was a case of the perfect storm of our current political climate colliding with these characters or if it was simply Sexton's deft crafting of this story that did it for me, but I had a bad case of The Feels reading Trailer Trash.



Told from both Cody and Nate's perspectives, set in late 80s Wyoming right in the middle of the AIDS epidemic that was largely ignored by the US govt. thereby making being gay tantamount to a death sentence and fueling the fires of homophobia and grotesque bigotry.



"Serves them all right if they die, if you ask me."

Nate has moved to Wyoming with his father after his parents split and he is not happy about going from Austin to Podunk, WY, pop. 2,833. Thankfully, he meets Cody almost immediately and latches on to him. I loved all the characters to varying degrees, but I latched on to Nate. He's never really thought all that much about his sexuality. He just figured he'd meet a girl one day that did it for him and they'd get married, blah blah blah yada yada even though he's never been attracted to a girl when most of his friends are already having sex and/or have girlfriends already. He knows he likes being around Cody so he just... keeps being around Cody and they become friends.

Until school starts.


Hope was dangerous. Hope would make him bleed like nothing else in the world could.

Cody is from the wrong side of the tracks and, yes, there is a Pretty in Pink thing happening. He and his mother live in the poorest area of town and he is the epitome of loner. In a lot of ways his mother is a failure as a parent, but she supports and loves her son in her own way. She's not going to win any parenting awards, but she won me over.

To save Nate from being tainted by association, Cody withdraws leaving Nate to fit in with one of the cliques-the Grove kids, the Mormons, or the cowboys. Only Nate doesn't fit in with any of them. The Grove kids are rowdy; they have sex and do drugs and get hella drunk and set fields on fire and all of it scares the ever loving shit out of Nate. He tries with the Mormons but that's not quite right either. And he's a prep at heart so no way are the cowboys going to work out. But none of that really matters because he can't stop thinking about Cody. Missing Cody. Wanting to be with Cody.


So he does and promptly freaks.


Nate thought of all the words he'd heard people use. All the cruel slurs tossed around. Homo. Queer. Faggot. Pansy. I can't be one of those things!

Nate's innocence spoke to me. All of his reactions felt natural as did Cody's and many of secondary characters, even the malevolent ones played their roles, but Nate... there is a scene where he's wrestling with the realization that he's got romantic feelings for Cody after having epically failed at het sex, he starts to cry and tries to blame it on Wyoming. Just how alone he felt in that moment was so palpable that I had a visceral reaction. Cody's no less riveting. He feels trapped in a town that's dying where everyone hates him and he feels less than all the time. He has one friend-the most popular boy in school, Logan. 

Logan does not give one flying fuck what anyone thinks and everyone is either jealous of him, wants to get with him or thinks he walks on water because of it. He needles the hell out of Cody, stink eyes Nate and generally tells it like it is to both of them in an effort to get one of them to make a move. 




The plot twist in the middle gutted me and, honestly, cast a shadow over the rest of the book but it finally brings them together. 


"I only see you."

There are some intimate moments between them but I wouldn't categorize this as sexy or erotic and, shockingly enough, I really appreciated that. I wanted the romance between them and Sexton delivered with homemade mixed tapes.




Slow dancing in candlelight.




Sweet nothings that turned me into a mushy pile of goo.


"You should know by now there's only one thing in the world I want anyway."

And planning their escape from Wyoming by using the library! Because no interwebs! *gasp* 




Trailer Trash isn't an easy read but it is hopeful. Nate and Cody are good kids who are divided by something as arbitrary as socioeconomic status and societal prejudices that shouldn't be foisted on anyone, really. All too often society dictates what is and is not acceptable for everyone and going against the grain is daunting for anyone which is part of what makes their choice to be together in the midst of an epidemic with the deck stacked against them all the more poignant. Their perseverance in the face of adversity is a message I can get behind. Things don't always go according to plan. Life throws them curveballs but how they keep working together to find solutions, finding the silver lining in even the most dire situations and not giving up on the people in their life that aren't entirely supportive of their relationship is the sort of optimism and fortitude that has advanced the LGBT cause to where it is today.




Recommended. Highly.





An ARC was provided by NetGalley in exchange for an honest review.

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Guest Review: Taylor Maid by Tara Lain

He'll marry the maid to get $50 million but a secret could queer the deal.

Taylor Fitzgerald needs a last-minute bride.

On the eve of his twenty-fifth birthday, the billionaire’s son discovers that despite being gay, he must marry a woman before midnight or lose a fifty-million-dollar inheritance. So he hightails it to Las Vegas… where he meets the beautiful maid Ally May.

There’s just one rather significant problem: Ally is actually Alessandro Macias, son of a tough Brazilian hotel magnate. But if Ally keeps pretending to be a girl for a little while longer, is there a chance they might discover this marriage is tailor-made?



Taylor is turning Twenty-five and is about to inherit $50 million dollars from his grandfather’s estate, only to discover that he is require to have a love-match marriage to secure his fortune. He is four hours away from the day of his birthday, and the only place he can think of to find a bride and get married is at Vegas. Only his escort gets into a car accident on the way to the hotel, and his plan is foiled. Until Ally. Ally is a maid at the hotel, and she does weird things to his gay dick. He’s suddenly proposing to her, and is not sad about that at all, which is confusing him, because he’s never reacted sexually to a woman before, and assures Ally, in his sales pitch that she does not have to have sex with him, ever.

Ally is hiding from his father, and sees an opportunity to escape Las Vegas, and hide out in San Francisco with Taylor, until his father stops trying to force him to marry a woman. This could all work out perfectly, as long as Taylor doesn’t find out that Ally is really a man.

This story was light and fluffy, with an alright premise. I enjoyed Taylor scrambling around trying to find a wife within 4 hours. It was completely ridiculous, and not believable at all, but you know, it was what it was. It made the story pretty funny really. From him asking his buddy if his sister will marry him for five million dollars, to trying to find an escort to meet him at the hotel so he can convince her to marry him and live with him for a few months, to make it look like the love match his grandfather wanted for him.

I thought Ally was great. I appreciated the dual pov. It gave me enough to work with, so I didn’t feel lost. I'm not really convinced about Ally's father. He's loving, and protective, but uses brute force to chase him down? Really? Nope. Doesn't work. If he really loved his son the way he described, he wouldn’t send his henchmen after him to scare him to death. But you know, my grandfather wasn’t a mobster, so maybe I’m wrong in my thinking.

A few inconsistencies in the story that were glaring to me. Ally explained he'd only been working as a maid for three weeks, and then this came up:  
"Even on her feet, her skin feels so soft. How can a maid have such soft feet?" 
Taylor isn't very smart... or maybe he hasn't stopped thinking of Ally as a maid. Either way - what the hell? Anyone can have soft feet if they take care of them. Seriously. What was the expectation here? Would this question have come up if Ally was a nurse? In retail? A chef? No - it wouldn’t. So stop with the stereotyping, please.

I did like that Ally was a hotel heir, posing as a maid. He didn't need the money, so it turned the story power imbalance around a little. Ally can skip out whenever he feels like it, and still be fine.

Besides those few blunders, I found the story entertaining. The character and relationship building was good, and the storyline stayed on course, and flowed well.

The sex scenes were sexy, and the chemistry worked between them. Taylor discovered a new fetish, which I’m on the fence about, along with his lamenting about whether he was Bisexual now, like there was some kind of problem with that. I’m sure the author didn’t mean it to sound elitist, and scornful, but it came across that way.

This ended like a fairytale, so there’s really not more I can say about it. Two heirs to fortune are all but forced together, but find some happily ever after. Like fairyfloss or whatever Americans call it (cotton candy maybe? - I always forget).


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Guest Review: Under a Sky of Ash by Brandon Witt

More than a decade after leaving Colorado to attend college and escape his past, Isaiah Greene moves back and builds a life in Denver as a special education teacher. When he meets Ben Woods, the mentor of one of his students, the attraction is immediate. The revelations that they’ve both suffered traumatic childhoods form a bond between them.

Raised by an abusive grandmother, Ben is a recovering addict who has made a family with his construction worker boss, Hershel, and Hershel’s husband, Daniel—drag queen ManDonna. Adding Isaiah to his life gives Ben a glimpse of a future he’d never dreamed possible for himself.

Both Isaiah and Ben are survivors, but when guilt drives a wedge between them, the past threatens to end their relationship.

Ben and Isaiah embark on journeys of self-discovery. Though their path will be difficult at times, humor and love find a way to bring light to the darkness.




I have a love hate relationship with angsty/drama novels. I read to relax and escape reality, and angsty books get me so emotionally invested it's almost stressful, but I can't deny it, they are the books that stick with me the most.

What a gorgeous hurt/comfort story this was, and hey, my first Brandon Witt. Verdict? It was goooood and I'll definitely be reading more by him. I can't hide it, obviously I was an emotional wreck while reading most of this.


Even though it hurt to read at times I found this story leaned more towards the comfort than the hurt. Ultimately this was a story about strength within yourself, and the strength you find when you love someone with everything you have.

Isaiah and Ben both have had a very rough past, certain glimpses of it were shown on page, which were hard to read. What surprised me however, was how much these two had worked through their demons when we meet them (20 years after their respective traumas). Isaiah had been to therapy… Did you hear me??? A man who took active steps to heal himself from his past trauma…*insert shocked face*, amazing! Despite their moderately well adjusted lives, both Ben and Isaiah still struggle to not fall back into their pasts with the many triggers they confront in everyday life.

(psst - I know Ben has blonde hair not brown, but unfortunately it's pretty hard to find pictures of interracial gay couples)

These men are honest with each other from their first date and support each other in any and all dramas that life throws their way. That was beautiful to see and made all their pain so much easier to read about, because they had each other. That of course made it more heartbreaking when certain events occurred and the inevitable ‘fall out’ happened.


I LOVED these characters, they felt so real and authentic, and I developed massive crushes on both of them. Ben was sooo funny, he made me chuckle often, which made reading this so much less stressful.
Sure, maybe I checked my phone a few times an hour. But I wouldn’t call it obsessing. And I hadn’t been moping around my house while I Facebook-stalked him. I’d been doing it at Daniel and Hershel’s house, as I was house-sitting.
I really recommend this book! It deals with some pretty rough themes: homophobia, racism, child physical abuse and narcotic addiction, plus more, but it didn’t break me down to read it. It was lovely!! So much love between two broken men.

I can’t end this review without mentioning this beautiful cover!! Wow, just wow!!

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