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Review: Dark Money Love by Ace Fawn

Akira Kazama is a man that gets what he wants. A loan shark king affiliated with the yakuza, he practically runs the money game in Tokyo.

Sora Nakano wants to save his mother’s life. When he has no choice left but to take out a hefty loan for her medical bills, he becomes indebted to Akira.

For Akira, business is always strictly business. And when someone owes him money, he always collects. Except this time, he wants more than just money from Sora.

He wants his body.

They agree on an arrangement for Sora to pay off the debt, and it’s supposed to be a win-win situation for them both. But Sora never wanted to be involved with the dark, hidden side of Akira’s life, and when Sora is threatened, he must turn to Akira for help.

Will Sora save his mother and get out of this alive? Or will he spiral down the path of dark money love?

Dark Money Love is a dark m/m romance intended for mature readers only. This book contains explicit adult content, weapon use and graphic depictions of death. Reader discretion is advised.




A criminal falls in lust...and then love?

Dark Money Love is a novella about 35 year old loner loam shark Akira. He's affiliated with the yakuza and collects debt payments for them.The book literally starts off with a bang with Akira collecting from an older, desperate person. Someone is trying to get over on him and Akira seems to be apathetic. He looks through his victims and finds young, innocent Sora. He knows Sora has no way of repayment especially with the high interest fees so he plans on coercing Sora to pay with his body.

Major dubious consent going on in here, consider yourself warned. And there are BDSM elements as well. I hesitate to call it BDSM as there is no SSC or RACK agreements. :( 

 Poor Sora doesn't know what's going on a majority of the time, Akira just blurts out to pick a "safeword" and poor Sora was confuzzled. Sora is an innocent in every sense of the word. He has no home, no friends and no one to help him with his ill mother. 

We get glimpses of akira's world which seems interesting enough. Akira is kinda tsundere, he's cold but cares for just Sora, even from the beginning of their arrangement.  

The writing is competent, but it needed another edit. It's the little things that can irk my reading soul such as one character puts on a condom and then in the next paragraph he's cumming raw in his partner. Did the condom break? Vanish? Was there a switcheroo on his didgeridoo?

I think another 10-15 pages to flesh out the main characters would have gone a long way with helping Sora and Akira's burgeoning 'romance'. I hesitate to call their softer feelings for one another a romance because they didn't talk to each other as much. If they would have opened up more, I think I'd believe it more. I wanted to like this more. I'm on the fence because I like dark plots but I also like the writing to match the style it was going for.

Would I read more from the author? Maybe, if the plot is good enough. I dunno if this is previous fanfic or if the author is also a fanfic writer, but it read like it.



Blog Tour + Giveaway: Out of the Shade by S.A. McAuley


A Novel Take PR and author S.A. McAuley host the Out of the Shade exclusive blog tour! Learn more about the contemporary romance, check out today's exclusive excerpt and enter in the $10 Amazon gift card giveaway (Three winners!)

Out of the Shade by S.A. McAuley

Publisher: Self-pub (S.A. McAuley, LLC)

Release Date (Print & Ebook): May 21, 2019

Length (Print & Ebook): 332 pages (print), 103k words

Subgenre: Contemporary

Warnings: alcoholism, mentions of sexual and physical abuse, mentions of drug addiction, mentions of rape, attempted suicide by a minor character, violence, homophobia, closeting

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Book synopsis:

Jesse Solomona has always tried to be the perfect straight guy—a cocky sports fan who drinks more than he did in his fraternity days and an expert at one-night-stands. That he hooks up with just as many men as he does women is a secret Jesse’s been hiding for years, fearful of losing his family and tight group of friends. He’s a Kensington boy—a group of guys that grew up in the same neighborhood and somehow all ended up back in their hometown. They, and his family, are the only things that still matter in his otherwise soul-sucking life.

Chuck Dunn, a tattooed and pierced sports photographer, has refused to step back into the closet since he was disowned by his family, but he keeps choosing men who can’t fully be with him. Finally free from a long-term relationship he should’ve ended years ago, he quits his high-profile gig in favor of getting back to the art of sports photography—documenting a local boxing club that works with at-risk teenagers. He may not have the same swagger anymore, but he’s working to be happy with who he is.

When Chuck joins one of the Kensington boys’ community center sports leagues, Jesse’s self-imposed rules are systematically demolished. But there’s one barrier Jesse can’t find the strength to break through—coming out to the other Kensington boys. Chuck knows hooking up with Jesse is a bad idea. Falling for him even worse. But he can’t stay away.

Chuck is damaged by his past. Jesse is frightened about his future. But, together, they may just be able to come out of the shade.



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Jesse riffled through an old issue of Sports Illustrated, stopping to glance at the byline of each photo and finding, just like Kam had said, Chuck’s name peppered throughout the glossy mag.
Chuck was stretched out on the couch, his feet crossed on the armrest and hands balancing his phone on his bare chest as he typed. Jesse cleared his throat and turned the pages more forcefully, with a loud thwack each time despite the flimsiness, but Chuck’s eyes stayed riveted to his phone. Jesse flipped to an action shot of a hockey player, blatantly stared at Chuck, and held the magazine up.
Chuck’s gaze flicked to Jesse, the corner of his lips tugged up, and he set his cell on the coffee table. “Meow?”
Jesse stared at him blankly, then roared with laughter. “Yeah, cat’s out of the bag, buddy.”
“Sorry I wasn’t the one to tell you.” Chuck sat up, scratching his stubble. “With as much as we’ve been talking, I’m honestly surprised it didn’t come up yet.”
“Well, you’ve been outed. Big time. What the fuck?”
Chuck ran his fingers through his hair, tousling it. “Are you seriously pissed?”
“Hell no! This shit is awesome. I gotta ask, though….”
Jesse took a deep breath. He wasn’t pissed that Chuck hadn’t told him about his previous job—the man’s business was his own. What was fucking with his head, though, was that a guy with that status, and likely the money that followed, could’ve used it as bait to get whatever man he wanted into bed.
He’d searched for even a hint of that persona when Chuck had knocked on his door last night, but once they were alone inside, Chuck had kissed him with confidence, not bravado. Then he’d thrown his hoodie over the arm of the couch, stripped down to nothing, and let Jesse take control. Jesse hadn’t really expected Chuck’s actions, or his own view of Chuck, to change at all—Chuck wasn’t a prick.
He simply couldn’t wrap his head around the fact that Chuck could’ve picked anyone, and yet he’d chosen Jesse.
“I don’t get it. I’m a salesman in a suburban shithole. Why…me?”
Chuck furrowed his brow like the question didn’t make sense. “Because I like you too, asshole.”
Jesse chuckled. It wasn’t exactly a romantic proclamation, but warmth spread through Jesse’s chest nonetheless.
“Listen. I should’ve told you. But people look at me differently when they know.”
“You thought I would?”
Chuck shook his head. “Charles Dunnbradley is my birth name, but it isn’t me. You know the real me, not that guy”—Chuck waved a hand dismissively over the stack of magazines—“and you still want me around.”
Now Jesse was even more confused. “You’re fucking with me, right? You have your shit together and I’m a closeted, out of shape—”
“Hey.”
Chuck’s gentle tone cut Jesse off immediately. Chuck stood and closed the distance between them, climbing into the chair with Jesse and straddling his hips. “Your body turns me on, Jesse. You turn me on. And I definitely don’t have my shit together.”
Jesse wrapped an arm around Chuck’s waist and pulled him closer. “You want to tell me about that?”
“Not now.” Chuck tipped his head and bit at his lip. “The rest of me is a canvas you’ll just have to unfurl.”
Jesse snorted. “Damn, you are an artist.”


Author S.A. McAuley is a wandering LGBTQ author who sleeps little and reads a lot. Happiest in a foreign country. Twitchy when not mentally in motion. Her name is Sam, not Sammy, definitely not Samantha. She’s a dark/cynical/jaded person, but hides that darkness well behind her obsession(s) with shiny objects.

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Review: Nachos & Hash (Mary's Boys #1) by Brandon Witt

Darwin Michaels is living his dreams in the Mile High City. While Denver offers the perfect job, scrumptious dining, and whirlwind dating options, Darwin is losing hope he’ll find the right man to spark his interest for more than a one-night stand—until he sets eyes on Cody Russell.

Cody has just accomplished his life’s goal—get the hell out of Kansas. In one fell swoop, he lands a job at Hamburger Mary’s and gets a newfound family and the chance to be with other gay people! All that’s missing is someone special. But when Darwin shows his interest, Cody is sure it’s too good to be true. After all, what can Darwin possibly see in the high school dropout serving him nachos?

As Darwin falls in love, Cody struggles to realize his worth. When his past threatens the fragile life he is building, Cody spirals into a moment of dark desperation. But Darwin is determined to show Cody that love and family and home are there for him… will Cody accept what is offered?



 “You sure you don’t want something besides nachos?  I know it’s good to be a cheap date and all, but you’re cute enough to earn a real dinner.”



Darwin’s on the latest of a long string of dates from hell and it’s taking all that is in him not to run screaming from the table.  He’s got his life in order, college, grad school, a successful career and he’s ready to take that next step.  He’s been searching for the man who will help him achieve his dream of the house with a picket fence, the husband and 3.5 kids but after this latest disaster of a date he’s about ready to swear off men for good.  Or for at least a little while.  Fortunately, his newfound resolve is derailed by the adorable little twink of a waiter at Hamburger Mary’s.



“Do we really have to play Britney every night?”

“Of course we do!  She’s like the original diva.  Without her, there’d be no Selena Gomez or Demi Lovato.”



There’s just something about Cody that Darwin can’t seem to resist.  He’s immediately enamored with the little cutie and though he has some reservations about Cody’s age he decides to stick around and get to know him better.

I have a confession to make.  This is my first Brandon Witt book and I have to say… I liked it.  Quite a bit in fact.  I went into this book not knowing anything about the way Witt writes and I was pleased by what I discovered.  By the blurb and the cover I was expecting a light romantic comedy and I got that for the most part, but I also got a whole lot more. 

For me, the overall theme of this book is perspective.  How one person views something is not necessarily how everyone else will see it.  This was clearest to me when Darwin and Cody were discussing their hopes and dreams.  How shocked Darwin was when he found out about Cody’s dreams!  He couldn’t fathom how Cody could be happy with what he wanted out of life and it made him look at it from Cody’s perspective.

There are some darker moments in this story that I won’t get into (I don’t want to spoil anything) and it touched on some very sensitive subjects that had me waiting for the incredible angst but, thankfully, it wasn’t too angsty.

I know some, once they read this, will say it was too ‘insta-love’ between Cody and Darwin and while, yes, they seemed to get together at breakneck speed and the ‘I love yous’ came soon after they got together, it really worked for this story.  It felt organic to me, like it was a natural progression.  I believed in their love.  And for those who say there’s no such thing as love at first sight?  Well, let me just tell you… I met my husband in a bar while he was on a date with another woman.  I could literally feel the connection between us from the moment our eyes met.  He ended up ditching his date and went home with me that night and never left.  Yes, that’s right, we moved in together the day we met.  Now, here we are almost 21 years later.  There is such a thing as love at first sight.  I’ve seen it.  Hell, I’m proof of it!

If you’re looking for a feel good romance with a bit, but not too much, angst that delves deeper than what is just on the surface, look no further than this book.  I think it’s safe to say that I will be reading a lot more of Witt’s work in the very near future.  I see you now, Mr. Witt, and I can’t wait to get my hands on book two! 







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Review: The Hidden Talents Trilogy by Claire Cray

Klaus Gadamer Academy has made a fortune by enslaving Talents and peddling their psychic skills to the global elite. But not all Talents can be tamed: Jackson Gadamer, KGA’s top precognitive, has been scheming to take them down. With the help of his trusted subordinate, the mischievous telepath Jin, Jackson is ready to set those plans in motion.

When Jin makes contact with a group of rogue Talents in Paris, he finds more drama than he bargained for. But there’s one who instantly captures his attention: Ken, a mysterious boy with a dark past, a surly attitude, and an aura of power Jin can’t decipher. Now all he wants is to figure Ken out…whether Ken likes it or not.

But Ken’s icy glares aren’t the only challenge. Jin is surprised to find an old acquaintance of his among the Paris Talents: Sky, a beautiful blond empath and former yakuza consort, is furious to see him, and not just because Jin knows how to get under his skin. It turns out Ken is Sky’s younger brother…and Sky is determined to stand between them.


Jin is on the run from the KGA, an organisation that farms Talents for their psychic and physical abilities, making billions of dollars from what they perceive is a disposable resource. A change of leadership within the organisation, has prompted the grandson of the founder, Jackson Gadamar, the most powerful precognitive alive, to enact his plan to take down the organisation, and Jin is an important player.

Jin has been told he will find a group of hybrid-Talents, those with combined physical and psychic abilities, in Paris, and he is to join with them as the first step of the plan in taking down KGA.

The hybrids’ are a group of broken men, struggling with death and destruction within their group. Grieving for not only those who died, but the one who betrayed them all.

This story is told from multiple points of view, but don’t let that deter you. This is an important part of building the story, and understanding each member of the group.

Ken is the most mysterious. Growing up in a cage, with no outside contact until six months ago, he is sharp, intelligent, and gives nothing away. His brother Sky, is a broken man, a former plaything of a Yakuza boss, he was aware of Ken’s plight through their psychic bond for most of his life, but was too drugged out to do anything but lay around, listening to his brothers pleas for help. This causes problems in the now reunited brothers, as Ken is unforgiving and Sky has misguided ways of trying to protect his brother now that he is safe.

Lip is the level headed one. He appears to be the unofficial leader, along with Mark. Both highly trained paramilitary defectors, who have started their own underground organisation, KRSI. Each one important in keeping the dysfunctional group grounded, safe, and healing.

Aki had his mind shredded by one of the previous members of the group in a psychic attack, along with his lover, Luke. Aki is trying to heal his mind, but his shields are exceptionally thin, and any psychic brushing against his mind causes him agony. With the death of his lover, he is just barely hanging on, and trying to look out for Ken.

This story is dark. I didn’t realise how dark it would be. Jin appears almost villain-like. An anti-hero with his games, and twisted interactions. He is fascinated by Ken, and uses that fascination to aggravate Sky, whom he has a past with. He knows just how to get what he wants from Sky, and Sky always folds to the torment. He’s almost ADHD with his moods, always moving, always needing entertainment. He was obviously utilized a lot by Jackson at the KGA and is finding it difficult to be a fugitive with nothing to do but hide.

This is an excellent start to the series. I was transported into this world with these broken men, and their trauma. It was difficult to read some things, because we get almost everyone’s point of view, therefore we get almost everyone’s stories, their pain and struggles. The information is extensive, but evenly delivered in a way that is not overwhelming. Precisely placed to give the entire picture of where they all fit in.

The sex in this story is hot, and plentiful. And as the story progresses the characters confess that sex and fighting has been about all they’ve done for a long while. Sometimes it is used as a weapon, and sometimes it is used as a distraction, but either way, it is delivered in a way that fits the story, and is all consuming.

At times I struggled with my own frustration, and how much worse it seems to get for these people. I count that as a win on engaging me emotionally, as well as intellectually with the psychic and enhanced physicality of these men. I’m eager to know more about the Talents. I want to know more about the construction of the KGA. What it actually does, besides create a monopoly using psychic and pseudo-military tactics to earn money.

And then there is the Key Prophecy. A single person whose genetic code will create super-humans who cannot die. KGA wants this person, and Jackson is determined to get to them first. This isn’t a well-kept secret within the story, but what is kept secret is what this person can supposedly do.

This story, obviously, ends on a cliffhanger, but it is in no way frustrating. I can see where it is all leading. It is just a matter of how it gets there.

I am excited by this story, I’m eager to get on with book #2.

Recommended for those who like paranormal/suspense style stories. Be warned, there is dub-con; mentions of slavery, extreme torture, and abuse; mentions of sexual exploitation of minors; mention of off-page mutilation, off-page suicide, mentions of off-page domestic abuse and rape, and death of secondary characters.

Rogue psychics with devious plans. Mysterious youths with shocking pasts. Tangled webs of sex, love and madness. Enter the world of Talents: Born with extraordinary powers, these outsiders rely on each other to survive.


There’s only person in the world Jin trusts: his boss, the ruthless precognitive Jackson Gadamer. When Jackson gave the bizarre order to run off and seek refuge with a rogue group of Talents until further notice, Jin didn’t hesitate. But the waiting game is more complicated than the rebellious telepath expected…and the company much more compelling.


Ken is a total enigma. With mismatched green eyes, head-to-toe scars and a glare that could freeze the sun, the mysterious young Talent has Jin captivated to the point of obsession. The secretive brat seems determined to keep his true powers hidden. But when one of his psychic abilities spiral outs of control, it’s Jin who comes to the rescue…and Ken starts to see the telepath in a different light.


As Jin finally starts to bond with Ken, he starts to wonder how the strange young Talent figures into Jackson’s plans. It’s hard to question a man who can see the future, but there’s something about Ken that Jin wants to keep to himself. When Ken’s curiosity turns into a tantalizing invitation, Jin realizes he’s in over his head…and all he wants to do is dive even deeper.


Content warnings: Multiple m/m sex scenes and a little m/f; references to past abuse, human trafficking, suicide and psychological trauma; violence; explicit language; hurt/comfort themes; unhinged psychics with dubious morals; fun.


Things are heating up for the hybrid Talents and with KGA putting all their resources into finding the rogue telepath Jin, the group from KRSI have been forced to move across the world to California.

But the drama doesn’t end when they land in sunny Los Angeles. It has only just begun.

Talents are waking from the dead, Ken is realising his powers, and his suspicions of Jackson Gadamar’s motives for joining forces are creating conflict with Jin.

The second book in this trilogy is just as good as the first, and continues the dramatic lives of these broken souls.

Everyone is damaged. Everyone is hurting. And the games Jackson is playing in the background is causing more chaos.

This series is fascinating. I haven’t put it down for a second. I am shirking my responsibilities of house cleaning, and going to Costco because I want to find out how this is going to play out.

The darkness within each character is still apparent, although Aki is starting to heal his body and mind after his tragic loss, and the destruction of his mental shields. It is good to see some life in him, and even a smile. His relationship with Ken is helping him to get stronger, and he’s warming up to Jin.

KSRI now has to be built from the ground up, which is taking up all of Lip’s and Kel’s time.
Mark is still torn about his feelings for Jen, who destroyed Luke, damaged Aki, and tore the group apart with grief.

Sky is notably absent in this story. I hope we’ll come back to him in the final installment. I want him to redeem himself, and become someone strong, and lose the self-loathing.

The character building is exceptional. There is a depth there with every single person in this story, even those without a solid point of view. The focus is more on Ken, Jin, Aki, and Jackson, as everything slots into place for the next book. It is difficult to understand Jackson’s motives because he appears to be working counter-intuitively towards a finale of epic proportions. While Jin is redeeming himself, Jackson now appears to be the anti-hero in this book. There is enough information to believe that this is for the good of everyone, but I am not entirely convinced his motives are altruistic.

There is erotic content in this book. There is also M/F sex in this story, although not as graphic as the M/M encounters. I know this can be a bone of contention with some M/M readers (although I don’t know why), but I had no problems with it. There are at least two characters in this series who are bisexual, and don’t hide it at all. There is less sex in this book than the first, as all the characters start focusing more on protecting themselves than merely existing in their bubble.

With the groundwork laid in the first book, there isn’t much more to say about this story without giving away the plot. But it is fast paced, well thought-out, and leading me into some sort of epic resolution.

I only hope that everyone survives.

Recommended for those who enjoyed the first book. This is not a standalone book and it is strongly encouraged to read the first in this trilogy before reading this, otherwise the relationships and interactions won’t make sense.

Trigger warnings: suicide, suicidal ideations, severe depression, and violence.


Ken never expected to be spending most of his time with a sneaky, irritating telepath. He knows Jin can't be trusted, that he's just a double agent for the precognitive Jackson Gadamer, that there are hidden motives behind those endless smirks and hungry looks. So why hasn't Ken pushed him away by now? How did the telepath get so close?

Jackson's cryptic methods are starting to wear on Jin, but working for a precognitive means silencing your own judgment. Still, it's getting hard to remember why he's taking orders from anyone but Ken. Falling for the strange, frighteningly powerful young Talent was a stupid idea, but now all Jin wants is to keep Ken to himself — and away from KGA.

Jackson’s been plotting to overthrow KGA since he was old enough to matter. Now the brutal psychic organization is closing in on the Talents, and his plans are about to be tested. All he needs is for Ken and Jin to play their roles. But when Jackson's prophecies catch up with the force of nature that is Ken, not even the precognitive can predict just how this battle will unfold — or who will make it out alive.

Content warnings: Multiple m/m sex scenes and a little m/f; major character death; references to past abuse, human trafficking, suicide and psychological trauma; violence; explicit language; hurt/comfort themes; unhinged psychics with dubious morals; fun.



The finale of this series continued well from the second book. There is still a lot of drama, but it is well thought out and starts to lead to resolutions.

Ken is developing his power as his confidence grows. His brother has left him alone and he is able to breath without the frustration of Sky interfering with him.

His relationship with Jin is getting stronger, even though he’s not really sure what is happening between them. Jin is falling in love, and hopes to pull Ken into the relationship with him.

Jackson’s plans are almost complete. He has been maneuvering for decades and he is about to get his victory, or so he thinks.

There were a lot of twists to this final installment, even though they weren’t overly surprising. The setup was there, but could be missed if one was considering a different outcome. There a few very sharp turns that left me breathless, and wanting.

The descriptive text was great. I really was all in with this series, and the writing style helped keep me in the story.

Some minor errors in editing, but nothing that pulled me too far out of the story.

The sex in this story was more romantic - out of the three books, this one had the element of romance in it that the others did not. It was still hot and engaging, with a more tender element to it.

I was completely invested in the characters, and felt a connection with all of them, even those who were not the nicest of people. I wanted all of them to be happy, to get along, and work together for the fight they were up against.

There were some questions left unanswered in this series, that I was hoping would be. Most of those questions surrounded David, Luke’s brother. I needed a bit more to feel satisfied with his presence. I also needed more from the final battle, but I can see where the author was coming from. It was cunning, so I’ll leave it alone. Ken is also a big question mark. He is the one I most want answers on, but the story is open enough to draw my own conclusions.

All told, this story was good, great even. I enjoyed the wild ride while binge reading. I wish/hope there will be more from this world. I think there is more to be told from these characters, and I hope that they will re-awaken as muses in the author’s mind so I can selfishly consume them.

Trigger warnings: severe depression, suicidal ideations, kidnapping, death of a main character, violence.


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Review: Project Ordell by Susanna Hays

Ordell Rutledge lives in the small town of Blackwick where he helps in his father’s modest automaton shop. While he enjoys interacting with the few people who grace his father’s business, he feels isolated because he can’t relate to them. For ten years, life’s been quaint and peaceful, but Ordell has a secret: he is an automaton, sentient enough to pass as human.

Ordell’s life is upended when the person he trusts most betrays him. Heartbroken, he sets off for Linnesse, a city that accepts automatons as people and is booming with the latest technology. With another sentient automaton, Elias Griffith, at his side, they overcome obstacles and uncover the strange truth behind Ordell’s past. But sometimes the past is best left in the dark.


Ordell is a sentient automaton living in Blackwick with his father and creator, Octavio, living peacefully and enjoys helping his father build other automatons to be sold as workers. Or so he believes.

One day he comes home from running his errands and finds his father arguing with a man who gives him the creeps. A week later he is betrayed by Octavio, and has been sold as a pleasure slave to that man.

Running away, he finds himself at Winifred’s house, whom he discovers is his real creator, and she has another automaton locked in her basement to keep him safe. She sends Ordell, and the other automaton, Elias to Linesse, where automatons are free to live as they please thanks an underground revolution that has been fighting for automaton rights for decades.

But the journey is long, and Ratcliffe, the man who bought him, will not give him up without a fight.

This story was loooooooooong. I feel exhausted just thinking about it now. There was so much nothing going on that it took me 8 weeks to read. I just couldn’t get into it. It may work for others, but it did not work for me.

Ordell has only been ‘alive’ for ten years, and while I won’t say he has the maturity of a ten year old, because that is just creepy, he has a naivety that borders on child-like. He is innocent, modest, and easily scandalised. His logic is sound, if he lived in a bubble, which he appeared to, until he was sold. His outrage and sensitivity was irritating and the dialogue didn’t flow well for me.

Elias was a former pleasure slave whom was re-programmed to protect Ordell. His protective streak was not sexy. It was overbearing and silly. There were holes in the story on how he knew what to do and where to go, for a robot whom lived in a basement for however long, and before that was a mindless sex-doll, he sure does know a lot about the outside world. Some of that was explained by programming, but the rest was not.

The story had an innocence to it that contradicted the darker elements of sexual slavery, and kidnapping. It was very whimsical and had a flutterby flow to it. The undercurrent of darkness didn’t really come through in this style of writing, and that was a shame, because it would have given the story the edge that it needed.

A lot of the dialogue was the same, just in a different location. Obviously, it wasn’t exactly the same, but it sure felt like one prolonged dialogue. Also, a lot of meaningless detail that did not progress the story. The only exciting part for me was the mechanical Kraken they encountered on their journey. I wish that scene had been longer.

The romance between Ordell and Elias was odd. It was very fluffy, and I felt like a robot reading about it. I didn’t feel the connection between them at all. I wanted to feel the heat, but it felt like they were just doing it because it was expected. They are supposed to have emotional and physical reactions just like humans.. You know, sentient, but it did not come across that way at all.

This was a really interesting concept, set in a sort of mashup between cyberpunk and gas light, that I really wanted to love. Unfortunately I feel like I will remember this story for all the wrong reasons. Tighter writing of the plot, and chopping about 25% of the dialogue/descriptions/action would greatly improve the flow of this story.

I really can’t recommend this to anyone, but if people want to take a chance, and enjoy cyberpunk/gas light/historical sci-fi then this might be something to try.

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